Thursday, November 26, 2009

Just Dance

Last night was awesome.
I have faith in Victorians. I always knew there was a wild and crazy side still hidden in them.

Well, till next time.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Sailability

Today, I went down to Changi Sailing Club to help a group of disabled sailors rig up their boats. Being me usual bastard self, I cracked a couple of mean jokes before they came.

I had to swallow my words.
I witnessed a man with no legs, a guy paralyzed waist-down, a man who has weak muscles and a young man who has disfigured legs set sail in a small dinghy all by themselves. And when they come back, they ask questions; "what could I have done better?", or "what should I do when this happens?"

Imagine, from a wheelchair, unable to walk on dry land, carried straight into a dinghy and set free out into the open ocean all by themselves.

I think it takes courage to do that. And lot's of strength. I admire those people.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

We'll Make It Through

Today I told myself, it doesn't matter where I end up in life from now on.
No more high expectations of myself, no more disappointments, no more frowns.
No more trying to make friends with people I don't normally like; stop trying to fit in.
I'll study when I feel like, I won't force myself to mug. I'll go out and have fun when I feel like.

Hey, I just want to be happy.
Just as long as I try my best and let life take me as I go.
Results are nothing. Cause even if I walk out of this bleeding 2 years with straight Cs or Ds, if I've tried my best then it's all okay.

Remember kids, happiness is not an outcome in life, it's a state of mind.
What matters is that you're happy to live, not live to be happy in the end.

I gots my family, my awesome friends and Pam by my side.
I think that's what everyone needs.
Sometimes I feel that I still don't know who I am. I'm still young. 17 only.

Chinese A level exams. I'm clearly prepared to fail it and my own brain has made me feel better about it by coming up with all this nonsense.

It may be nonsense, but it's true.
At least for me.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

8 Months & a Day

Promotional Exam results are fine, I can get promoted yay.
Project Work Written Report submission deadline's today; finally get to wash my hands off that damn piece of work.

What's ahead?
A Level Chinese, PW Oral Presentation, and a whole lot of fun during the holidays.
Then it's on to 2010, and we're in for a wild ride.

"Take this sinking boat and point it home;
We've still got time.
Raise your hopeful voice,
You have a choice, you've made it now."

I think I've fallen in love all over again today.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

The Only Exception

I don't like to curse on this blog, but FUCK THIS SHIT.
Goddamn I hate people; screw you all pretentious motherfuckers.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

It's Almost Over

Well, maybe there's a god above,
But all I've ever learned from love,
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you.
It's not a cry that you hear at night,
It's not somebody who's seen the light,
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah.


Well, here we go again.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Butterbeer

School, airport, school, airport..Wedding..School, Airport, School. And tomorrow, airport.
Urgh.
Mug mug.

Me wants promotion.
13 more days!
Then it's 5 papers in 3 days.

I hope everyone's studying hard and all the best for Promos,
for the J2s, all the best for Prelims/A Levels,
for the Sec 4s, good luck for O Levels,
for the Sec 1, 2, 3s, enjoy the last care-free years of your life,
and for the Poly guys I hope ya'all enjoying your holidays.

Monday, August 31, 2009

Baybeats

Baybeats last year was nothing compared to what just happened tonight.
I'm picking up Anberlin's album fo-sho. First time listening to them tonight, and they delivered.
I think everyone who went tonight had a blast moshing, surfing and dancing.
Anyway, I really want to know why there isn't Singfest this year? :O

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Omegle

Today, my class found a wallet in school with no ID inside. It contained $52. I suggested splitting the money or keeping the wallet. They convinced me otherwise and ended up returning the wallet to the general office. Then I went to buy a drink at a vending machine. It swallowed 50 cents. I think it's trying to teach me a lesson about integrity. MLIA.

http://omegle.com/

This is awesome.
A site that links you up with a random stranger from around the world and let's you chat with him/her.
So during TSD lesson today, I told Jared how awesome it would be like if there was a zombie uprising in Singapore. And how awesome it would be to hijack an SBS bus and crusade around Singapore rescuing survivors and killing zombies.

Then I went to Omegle.
The random stranger I got linked up to, is in his attic, preparing for a zombie uprising.

Stranger: I heard a rather eerie sound outside a few minutes ago.
Stranger: Are the dead rising where you are?
You: haha ZOMBIES.
Stranger: they are here.
Stranger: by the thousands.
Stranger: walking
Stranger: my attic is the only safe place

We proceeded to talk about our arsenal of weapons, how to effectively kill a zombie and what our plans for long-term zombie infestation for the next 30 minutes.
I don't know why I just blogged about it, but I'm so amused. If I knew him, he'd be my best friend.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Rainbows & Cupcakes


Yesterday, Azri called me out of no where in the afternoon and told me about a rainbow.
No, 2 rainbows.

Although I couldn't see it from where I was, the thought of rainbows in the sky made me smile for the first time in a while. I guess I was pretty depressed throughout the whole week; school work, PW, promos and other stuff.
And the rainbows just made me realize that there's a happy ending to every storm - a silver lining. So, we all gotta keep holding on and keep trying.

There's a way out of every dark mist, over a rainbow trail.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

The En Qi Camp

Random camping under the stars at ECP after a hectic school week is fun.
Friday ended with an awesome Geography talk by some Professor Ben Horton from the University of Pennsylvania. (Ivy League siol) Some Professor he turned out to be: 20+ year old English dude who worse a Manchester United Jersey for his talk. Pretty interesting; learned more in that 1 and a half hours then all my Geog lectures combined.

Then went home, cycled down to ECP and camped for the night.






Cooked Maggi the whole night.
Got fined by the park authorities for $100 for setting up an illegal open fire. (FML)
But it was fun. The wind was awesome and I slept like a pig under the stars. Had a big breakfast at Macs with Pam before heading off to sailing, with even nicer winds.

Then, I worked my ass off at the Esplanade Library the whole of today.
And I'm only 20% done with tutorials and projects and assignments. :(
Promos! Ahh.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Nice Move

It's saddening: VJC and VS are gonna be dropping their affiliation within the next couple years.
Why? Cause VJC wants a 6-Year Integrated Program similar to the ones in RIJC, Dunman High etc.

In the case of RIJC, they have the bulk of their JC1 intakes from RI and RGS. Good for them.
But VJC only has VS. So where do the girls come from? No where, so the only way is to VS to become a Co-Ed school. But VS rejects this, so VJC has to stand alone now.
But why even try to have a 6-year program in the first place? Well, it's for competition's sake. Apparently, initiating such a program will ensure good results in the A Levels and help VJC maintain it's position as one of the top JCs in Singapore.

That's my point.
Competition.
Soon, in the next couple decades or so, every JC will be doing the same thing as RIJC and VJC.
Start a 6-Year Integrated Program OR go affiliate itself with some secondary school where bulk of their students will move on to that JC, for the sake of "competition".

So think about it this way.
If Student A does not do well in his PSLE, and goes to a Secondary school NOT affiliated with a JC, it means he has an extremely low % to enroll in a JC after his O Levels. Why? Cause all the JCs already have their own affiliated secondary school or already has started admitting students from Sec 1 level. So Student A goes to poly or ITE. If he or she wishes to enter a JC at this level, he shall face stiff competition from so many others who are all fighting for so limited places in the JCs.

If Student B does well in PSLE, he goes to a JC or affiliated Secondary school, has an extremely high chance of receiving a JC education and then moving on to the university.

So let's compare Student A and B's chances of getting into a university.
B>A.
Based on? Their PSLE results. That's screwed up.
You're sorting children out on who deserves to go to university at such a young age. PSLE is the most stupid exam ever. How can you judge the abilities of a child at an age of 12, then decide what schools they can go to, which then determines the quality of their education from then on.

Now, PSLE is stupid as it is. With this IP nonsense coming up, it's gonna get worse.
Basically, children are getting admitted into institutions of higher education at a younger and younger age. With the 6-year IP nonsense, it's directly linking the PSLE results of a child to the JC he or she is going to be enrolled in.

It's stupid.
Competition my arse.
C'mon. You wanna promote healthy competition among Singaporean youths? Wanna give them all a good education for the sake of Singapore's future.
Here's what.

Throw all them foreigners out. Overseas scholars.
Get rid of them in VJC/TJC alone, you probably make room for another 500 Singaporean students dying for a JC education. Why give priority to foreigners and ignore your own people?

Now, now, I'm not blaming the government for anything, except maybe allowing so many spaces to overseas students.
I'm just saying that this "competition" among students/schools is all just gonna drive the whole system to the damn ground.

Of course. The above scenario is just my speculation.
I mean, pfft, what are the chances of it happening, aye?
It's not like Singaporeans are competitive.
:)
I still love Singapore la.

Monday, August 10, 2009

What Do You See?

I Love Singapore.
Yes, I'm patriotic.

I don't care what you think about Singapore. I say it's an awesome country.
Yes, it has flaws in the system, but hey, it's better than nothing and honestly, I love my country and appreciate all that's right with it. Education, security.

I hate those people who hate the PAP for the sake of doing so, and unable to find any evidence to back it up to why they hate the government. Even those who are able to do so, it's usually trivial matter.

We got the good life here in Singapore.
To those who hate it, go ahead, pack up and leave when you can. I'm sure you'd be able to find more freedom somewhere else.

I know I'll probably have different feelings about this when I'm older and start being a tax-payer, but for now, as a teenager, I'm happy.
But let's face it; Singapore has only manpower to depend on, not quantity, but quality.
Producing brainy citizens is the only way we can keep our ass floating, so live with the strict meritocratic system. Yes, there is inequality in terms of income and education opportunities, but it's the only way to bring out the best for the nation.

This year's NDP theme song by Electrico, What Do You See? is awesome.
I've heard people say it's so "poser" and so "wanna-be"...
How on EARTH is it "poser"? It's probably the most original thing I've heard in a really, really long time.
The lyrics are so meaningful, and it does not only apply to the progress and future of Singapore, but it can probably relate to so many other things as well.
Vocals and instruments are awesome.
And it's a great song.
That's my take on it anyway.

So, Happy National Day to everyone.
Hoped you've all enjoyed the long weekend.
Have a great Tuesday toomorrow.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Heartbreak House

Last week was busy busy week for me, but it's finally over.
EoM, Critical Commentary and Monologue's all finished..for now.
Had an awesome time sailing on Saturday.

Okay. Tomorrow I shall get my bicycle tire fixed, then I can start cycling to school.
I think it makes sense. I mean, what a better way to start the day's lesson than a nice cycle to school, followed by a cold shower. And I'm gonna get my exercise.

It's August already. Next month is September, which is when my promotion exams will start. JC life sure is fast. It just seemed like yesterday I've stepped into a Junior College. Now, the year is almost gone and before I know it, I'll be a senior.
Gosh.

And since time is going by so quickly, I'm not wasting any time in planning my future.
I pretty much have a clear idea of what I want to do in life already; that includes scholarships, university courses, careers, and family.
Planning the future is fun, and it really motivates you to start becoming something now, and taking action.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Sleep Paralysis

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e7aAe0mqY9c&feature=channel

"Sleep paralysis occurs when the brain awakes from a REM state, but the body paralysis persists. This leaves the person fully conscious, but unable to move. The paralysis can last from several seconds to several minutes "after which the individual may experience panic symptoms and the realization that the distorted perceptions were false".[5] When there is an absence of narcolepsy, sleep paralysis is referred to as isolated sleep paralysis (ISP).[6] "ISP appears to be far more common and recurrent among blacks than among whites or Nigerian blacks",[7] and is often referred to within black communities as "the Devil on your back"[8][9]"

I went to sleep at 3 am last night.
Laid down on my brother's bed, alone in the dark.
Woke up, was fully conscious of my surroundings, could look around, but unable to move. Like I was seriously unable to move even a finger.
At first I thought nothing of it, but then I started to hear wailing noises, coming from under my bed, like a baby crying and trying to talk to me.

Then a blanket appeared at the doorway on the floor, and a figure was like, rising from underneath it, at the same time moving towards me.
Well at this point of time, I was praying like crazy to Jesus or God or whoever could save me, and honestly, was on the verge of tears already. I couldn't shout, I couldn't scream, I couldn't do anything. I was trying to scream for my mum or somebody, but all I could hear was myself in my head.

The crying got louder and louder and it moved nearer and nearer to me until it was standing right beside me. Of course, I was fully conscious and aware of my surroundings, but that "thing" was a part of my dream, mixed in with reality. I thought something was trying to possess me or send me to hell. Damn, I even thought my time was up and it was The Reaper trying to take me away.

But as suddenly as it began, suddenly it disappeared, I snapped out of it. I grabbed my pillow and blanket, ran to my mum's room and did a superman jump over her and slept beside her for the rest of the night.

Sleep paralysis is some scary shit. The whole thing lasted for like 5-10 minutes.
Like I was seriously paralyzed; whole body; stiff as a plank of wood. But aware of everything.
A nightmare got mixed with reality, and I perceived the whole thing as reality.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_paralysis

You can't make this shit up.
That's it for me, no more sleeping alone in my room for the next couple weeks.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Dried Vegetables

Awesome 17th Birthday. I'll remember that night for a long, long time.
Thanks to everyone! I really appreciate it.

Long week ahead, lots of assignments to hand up.
Looking forward to the end of the week. (:

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Just Dance

I love my college.
In one weekend, I got to: be only 3 meters away from Xabi Alonso and the President of Singapore, officially collect my scholarship on stage during college day, help be part of Jumbo's crew for the 25th VJC Homecoming dinner, make friends with the rest of the sportsmen/sportswomen in VJC (I really love making new friends) and so on.

Yeah, so what if the way of education sucks here in Singapore. It's unreasonably unrealistic and impractical.
But, you know, I'm so glad that my school tries to make our time spent as worthwhile and as enjoyable as possible.
So for all the workload, be it PW or Chinese or stupid subjects, don't blame the school, blame the syllabus.

Today, or rather yesterday, through College Day and Homecoming dinner, I understood what the meaning of school spirit is.
And VJC has really, really nice, warm and friendly people, teachers, students, alumni alike.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Marely & Me

School is awesome, and so is the weekend.
Friday, at 4.30pm, our last lesson ended and Jared said, "Alright! No school for 2 days!"
Then we went on a random drinking session with a couple others.

I'm not touching alcohol for the next 7 days. I've never gotten so wasted in my life before. Throwing up 6 times is horrible, but damn the night was fucking good.
Crashed the moment I reached home, struggled out of bed at 8.15am and headed back to school.

Went to Tim's condo where met up with Tim & Ruby and played with his dog and other dogs being walked.
I'm so gonna get a Golden Retriever or Husky when I get older. That ain't Tim's dog though.
The weekend's awesome! And it's only Saturday.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Meaningless, or Meaning Less?

I talk to you as to a friend,
I hope that’s what you’ve
come to be.
It feels as though we’ve
made amends,
Like we found a way
eventually.

It was you who picked
the pieces up,
When I was a broken soul.
And then glued me
back together,
Returned to me what
others stole.

I don’t wanna hurt you,
I don’t wanna make you sway.
Like I know I’ve done before,
I will not do it anymore.
I’ve always been a dreamer,
I've had my head among the clouds.
Now that I’m coming down,
Won’t you be my solid ground?

Awesome week.
Monday ended at 11:35am, Tuesday ended at 11:00am, Wednesday ended at 10:25am, today had a 6-period break from 11:00am to 3:05pm, and tomorrow my lessons only start at 12.45pm.

I kinda realized, after wasting a lot of time reading FML, MLIA and MLIG, every single moment in your life can be classified into one of those.
So if you're really bored like me, I constantly, sub-consciously classify moments in life into one of the three categories throughout the day in school.
It's fun. Kinda.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Absinthe

Absinthe: The alcohol with Extraordinary Powers.
Sex.

Happy 18th Birthday Sa!
Awesomeeeeeeeeeeeee~~
Today is a great week, and it's only Monday!
I finally sat for my A Level Chinese Oral without a single bit of preperation (last time I'd ever have to sit for a Chinese Oral Examination), got to hang out with Pam for a while, I discovered an awesome bar/pub which I'm bringing Pam to after Promos, I got to make new friends, I had the best drinking session in a long time, swam in a pool, and oh, received an A for my H2 Mathematics paper. (:

I'm happy. I'm on a roll. My life is great. I wanna spread the love and joy.